Huh..what?

Have you ever felt lost? Well, not really lost but confused?  Lately it's like my brain is stuck in the spin cycle of a washing machine. Just goes round and round. The thoughts never stop, the worries never cease. 

Why? I am a woman who believes completely that God is the one in control, yet I still sit here spinning. How? How do I let go of all these things that keep me from complete abandon?

I want to surrender to The Lord, I want to give him all these pieces of me he wishes to receive. I want my life to be for him, and completely understand that anything that we put before him is considered an idol, and you cannot be fully blessed with the presence of God in your life until you give him everything. 

The past few months have been wrought with so much stress, confusion, and pain that I have become almost catatonic. I find myself sitting there staring at walls for answers that never come. 

I need you Lord, give me a heart and mind only for you. Calm me Lord, Tell me what you want me to do because I now see my way is getting me nowhere

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