Who I Am Today
With this ever-growing relationship with Jesus Christ, my Lord and Savior, has come a great pain. I have already spoke of my pain for the children of Uganda. With that pain has come the extreme urge to do something about it.
I have been trying to help through technology for now, since being a financially challenged single mother of five kids that is about the only way I can. If I could, I would be in Uganda right this minute doing anything I could to bring hope to the people so badly in need.
I don't have finances to change their terrible circumstances, but I do have the internet. Since it is going to take me a while to collect enough spare change and soda bottles for the deposits to make the money I need to get myself to Africa.
Oh, believe me I am working on it! I save every last penny and soda can for my African mission fund. Some people are calling me crazy. Some get kind of angry, saying there are so many people in need right here. I do agree with the fact that there is most definitely need right here in my backyard, it is just simply not the place God has burdened my heart. Other people however do nothing but encourage me. Some even give me their spare change or cans to help fund my dreams. It will happen in God's time
God has called me to Uganda, he just has a few things for me to do before he opens my path to get there. He is teaching me patience. When God told Sarah that she would have a child with Abraham, she wanted to believe, but things were taking so long and she was getting old. She knew her body was too old to bear children. It took years for God's promise to become a reality for Sarah, and when the baby was born- Sarah laughed. I think she was laughing at herself, really. She laughed at her lack of faith in our God that always keeps his word.
He told Sarah she would conceive, but Sarah just didn't believe it was possible and despite her impatience, and lack of faith, God kept his word to Sarah and Abraham. He kept his word because God has his plan that we know nothing about. He needed Sarah to have a son, to pave the way for his mighty plan. God has had this devine plan from the beginning, before all creation.
It is not our place to question his motives or his timing. So, unlike Sarah, I will be patient. I will have complete faith that the things happening in my life today are all set there by God, to create my path to carry out his will.
I am not worried about GETTING to Africa, like I was when this all began. I got so determined to make it happen NOW. I can't make anything happen right NOW, because it is not yet his will. Right now God has asked me to slow down, take heed that he is the one in the driver seat, and I need to only wait and see where it is we are heading.
That is why I am writing this blog. I want to let you, the readers, share in this fantastic journey I am on. I want to share how it makes me feel and the steps I am taking to get there. I want to share day to day the difference having the spirit in me is making in my life.
God said slow down, let me drive. So, that is what I did. I stopped focusing on the getting to Africa, and began searching for realistic ways I can help today, right now, from right here. That's how this blog was inadvertantly created.
I had it come to mind sitting here just absolutely racking my brain for an idea, when God whispered about all the technology I have right here at my disposal. I have the internet for goodness sake! How silly I didn't see it sooner. So I started the Sanyu Foundation Blog (sanyufoundationuganda.blogspot.com)
I collect information through speaking directly with the members of the Foundation. They tell me about their activities and programs, then I take it and compile it into a report on the blog. It is highly challenging, let me tell you that right up front. Writing about things you are a world apart from is difficult. I have no experience at any of it. Like I said, I am just a struggling single mom. I live day to day and paycheck to paycheck. I haven't gone to college, I do have a GED though. The only skills I have are self taught from being stuck home for twelve years poking around on a computer, and yet God reassures me that I am the exact person needed for this task.
I do this for the Foundation as a complete volunteer, as I don't see it being "In God's Name" if I were to ask for compensation, right? So, I give the Foundation the opportunity to help children rather than paying for somebody to run their blog. I am helping, I am making a difference. I will be complete in my life if just one child will get a chance at a real life by my taking just an hour out of my day to sit on a computer and write a little story.
Three months ago, it was hopeless to help...pointless. Now, with God leading my way I am involved and helping with a Foundation that is making incredible amounts of progress in helping the communities that burden my heart. I can not believe the amazing people God has put in my path to reaffirm his plan for me and my life.
I had thought for years the Lord forgot me, now I trully understand the suffering I went through in my life. The suffering I bore, was put on me so that I would be able to reach out. Reach out to those in pain. Pain is a very close not so distant buddy of mine, I hated being in pain. It was horrible all the different pains I held in my heart. I now embrace them, I embrace them for the knowledge they give me. I wouldn't be me without them. If I hadn't experienced every single moment up until now I would be in a completely different place.
I don't want to be in a different place, I love right where I am right now. I am wrapped in the arms of the Lords loving grace, and he is providing for me! He is changing everything. He changed the way I look, act and feel. I want to hurt for Uganda, I want to feel the pain. When I feel the pain, I also see God's grace. There is nothing better! Thank you Jesus for calling on me!
I have been trying to help through technology for now, since being a financially challenged single mother of five kids that is about the only way I can. If I could, I would be in Uganda right this minute doing anything I could to bring hope to the people so badly in need.
I don't have finances to change their terrible circumstances, but I do have the internet. Since it is going to take me a while to collect enough spare change and soda bottles for the deposits to make the money I need to get myself to Africa.
Oh, believe me I am working on it! I save every last penny and soda can for my African mission fund. Some people are calling me crazy. Some get kind of angry, saying there are so many people in need right here. I do agree with the fact that there is most definitely need right here in my backyard, it is just simply not the place God has burdened my heart. Other people however do nothing but encourage me. Some even give me their spare change or cans to help fund my dreams. It will happen in God's time
God has called me to Uganda, he just has a few things for me to do before he opens my path to get there. He is teaching me patience. When God told Sarah that she would have a child with Abraham, she wanted to believe, but things were taking so long and she was getting old. She knew her body was too old to bear children. It took years for God's promise to become a reality for Sarah, and when the baby was born- Sarah laughed. I think she was laughing at herself, really. She laughed at her lack of faith in our God that always keeps his word.
He told Sarah she would conceive, but Sarah just didn't believe it was possible and despite her impatience, and lack of faith, God kept his word to Sarah and Abraham. He kept his word because God has his plan that we know nothing about. He needed Sarah to have a son, to pave the way for his mighty plan. God has had this devine plan from the beginning, before all creation.
It is not our place to question his motives or his timing. So, unlike Sarah, I will be patient. I will have complete faith that the things happening in my life today are all set there by God, to create my path to carry out his will.
I am not worried about GETTING to Africa, like I was when this all began. I got so determined to make it happen NOW. I can't make anything happen right NOW, because it is not yet his will. Right now God has asked me to slow down, take heed that he is the one in the driver seat, and I need to only wait and see where it is we are heading.
That is why I am writing this blog. I want to let you, the readers, share in this fantastic journey I am on. I want to share how it makes me feel and the steps I am taking to get there. I want to share day to day the difference having the spirit in me is making in my life.
God said slow down, let me drive. So, that is what I did. I stopped focusing on the getting to Africa, and began searching for realistic ways I can help today, right now, from right here. That's how this blog was inadvertantly created.
I had it come to mind sitting here just absolutely racking my brain for an idea, when God whispered about all the technology I have right here at my disposal. I have the internet for goodness sake! How silly I didn't see it sooner. So I started the Sanyu Foundation Blog (sanyufoundationuganda.blogspot.com)
I collect information through speaking directly with the members of the Foundation. They tell me about their activities and programs, then I take it and compile it into a report on the blog. It is highly challenging, let me tell you that right up front. Writing about things you are a world apart from is difficult. I have no experience at any of it. Like I said, I am just a struggling single mom. I live day to day and paycheck to paycheck. I haven't gone to college, I do have a GED though. The only skills I have are self taught from being stuck home for twelve years poking around on a computer, and yet God reassures me that I am the exact person needed for this task.
I do this for the Foundation as a complete volunteer, as I don't see it being "In God's Name" if I were to ask for compensation, right? So, I give the Foundation the opportunity to help children rather than paying for somebody to run their blog. I am helping, I am making a difference. I will be complete in my life if just one child will get a chance at a real life by my taking just an hour out of my day to sit on a computer and write a little story.
Three months ago, it was hopeless to help...pointless. Now, with God leading my way I am involved and helping with a Foundation that is making incredible amounts of progress in helping the communities that burden my heart. I can not believe the amazing people God has put in my path to reaffirm his plan for me and my life.
I had thought for years the Lord forgot me, now I trully understand the suffering I went through in my life. The suffering I bore, was put on me so that I would be able to reach out. Reach out to those in pain. Pain is a very close not so distant buddy of mine, I hated being in pain. It was horrible all the different pains I held in my heart. I now embrace them, I embrace them for the knowledge they give me. I wouldn't be me without them. If I hadn't experienced every single moment up until now I would be in a completely different place.
I don't want to be in a different place, I love right where I am right now. I am wrapped in the arms of the Lords loving grace, and he is providing for me! He is changing everything. He changed the way I look, act and feel. I want to hurt for Uganda, I want to feel the pain. When I feel the pain, I also see God's grace. There is nothing better! Thank you Jesus for calling on me!
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