Discouragement Vs. God



If you have been reading my blog, you know very well that I have felt very discouraged lately. I am loving my life with Christ leading the way. He has been telling me to keep wrapping myself in his word. He has taught me that this is the armor that gets us through this hopeless world.

I want to worship my Lord and Savior without the struggle I face at home with my fiancee wanting me to limit my time in worship. It feels like being torn in two directions. So, as I have said many times already, when feeling down I lift up my bible.

This is the lesson the good Lord showed me today,

He showed me Isaiah 28:5
In that day the Lord Almighty will be a glorious crown, a beautiful crown, a beautiful wreath for the remnant of his people.

I have been feeling so beat down with all the discouragement exuding from the rolling of my boyfriends eyes, the shrug of his shoulders when I talk, or just the straight out asking me to step down from my worship of the Lord making it more of a once a week thing. He is telling me here in Isaiah to keep hope and faith in him he is promising to lift my head and crown me with his presence, and truly that is all there is in this world. Living in and for the presence of the Lord. I can't let myself be worried with how my partner feels about my relationship with God. I hear a whisper to look at Matthew 6:24

No one can serve two masters. Either you will hate the one and love the other, or you will be devoted to the one and despise the other. You cannot serve God and money.

While this verse references the second master to be money, for me in my life it is my spouse or partner. The good Lord wants me to be devoted to my partner, but not if it means foresaking my relationship with my God. He is continually telling me to remain with him. Remain in his word, his way, and his light. It is my path to being freed from the darkness that has been the definition of my life.

He reassures me once again in Isaiah 54:4-5

Do not be afraid; you will not be put to shame. Do not fear disgrace; you will not be humiliated. You will forget the shame of your youth and remember no more the reproach of your widowhood. For your Maker is your husband--the Lord Almighty is his name.

Oooh, the comfort I felt when I first turned to this verse. What utter amazement I was in, it seemed like the good Lord was specifically talking to me through the bible this morning. This is the actual point of this whole story, I am being strong to remain in the Lord and I want to share with you just exactly what happens to those who choose to let God be the driver in this car of life. You begin to feel him holding you, you begin to hear his encouragement, and you begin to see his divinity all through your day. You see him in everything. In the beautiful landscapes around us, the relationships we forge, in our childrens smiles. Trully is changing everything in my world.

I want more, I am thirsty for more. I will drink in his word, and praise every moment and every breath the good Lord grants me. He is trully and amazing everlasting God.