My life has been so crazy lately. The thing is becoming a christian is hard. Nobody ever said changing one's entire way of life is. Not that I know of anyway. Ever since opening my life to the Lord there have been so many attacks. Not physical in any sense of the word, but the emotional, psychological, and spiritual attacks are most definitely in abundance. Satan is losing a longtime hopeful companion of his, and I can sense he is not happy about it. I had been doing his bidding for years through self-indulgence, gluttony, drug use, self-pity, and more. Now, I just want the Lord. All the time I just want more. It is how they say, once you open your heart, the thirst becomes so great! It's not a suffering type of thirst as in the desert with no water, it is an intense craving though, that is impossible to completely fill. There is always more of God. More grace, more love, more compassion, and mercy. The fight over me is intense at best right now. It is sometimes almost...