Help Me Father

Heavenly Father,
                            I am writing you today because I am lost. I am lost in pain and confusion, and I need you. I am trying God to give you my entire life, give you control over every little thing. Father, the closer I get to you, the more my world is falling apart. I know I am not to love worldly things, why is it so hard? Why does becoming closer to you have to be such a struggle. I know you have never claimed that having Faith in you and carrying my cross would be easy, but why does it have to be so terribly hard. I know as well, that I should not ask you for your motives, I am just so weak right now, and here I am claiming your name, asking you to cover me with your strength and endurance to pull through and remain in your light.

                            Father, I love my life with you, and when I am in communication with you everything feels so right. I know you are transforming my life to what you want it to be, and yes, father I see all the blessings you bestow upon me every day. I love and thank you for that.

                            The name of this blog is Perfect Weaknesses, and yes, you are strong in our weakness, my pain is so great, it feels consuming. Take it Lord, take it and heal my heart. I can't stand the hurt, it takes my breath away, and hurts my stomach. Yes, it is so large, it has taken over physically. That is the purpose of this letter. I know I can not be leaning on you in the way that I should if it is consuming me this bad. 

                           Forgive me Father, for I have sinned. I have let the world take hold of me yet again, and closed my eyes to your love.  Give me a distaste, Lord, for all things of this world, and guide all my thoughts towards you. I am nothing without you, and wish to give all to you. Help me, Lord, to do this. Consume me, fill me up, make me thirsty only for you and not the approval of the people around me. Father, I need you now...

                            This I pray in you sons everlasting name

                                                Amen

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